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IT’S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I’VE LET ANYONE IN ON HOW MY BOOK, “MY ASPIE LIFE”, DETAILING MY STRUGGLES WITH ASPERGER’S SYNDROME, HAS BEEN GOING, SO…
Last week I finally found the time to begin a task that needs to be done:
Editing the book that I’ve been working on, “MY ASPIE LIFE”.
Being that I finished my second draft of the book several months ago and was officially in manuscript form rather than handwritten in a notebook, I knew that editing was needed as the prevailing question, “How can I make this book better?” was and is the order of the day.
In essence, I was doing the same thing that editors at publishing companies do, save for the fact that I was doing it instead of some random person.
Editing my book is very important to me precisely because it’s my book, not someone’s who doesn’t know me from Adam whose job is to cover something you’ve written with painstaking care in red pinstripes and tell you things like:
“This passage sucks.”
“That paragraph sucks.”
“This storyline sucks.”
“Your epilogue sucks.”
“You need to rewrite this whole chapter because it sucks.”
In my mind, who are they to say that about a book that they had nothing to do with?
I know that quite a few people will disagree with me on this, but the way I see it,
No one knows my book better than me.
And I’m sorry, but I’m not going to let some stranger rip me and what I’ve written apart.
I would rather fail at this endeavor while doing it completely on my own in the proverbial “Lone Wolf” fashion than succeed beyond my wildest dreams, in the form of “MY ASPIE LIFE” becoming a million-copy best seller – which I don’t expect it to be as while that would be great in a winning the lottery kind of way, that has never really been my goal – by having some stranger interfere in my writing process.
I’m sure I’m in the vast minority, but that’s how I see outside editors: interfering.
That’s probably my aspieness talking, in the sense that I don’t react to outside criticism that well, suicidal thoughts coming to me in the past in situations like that.
The bottom line is, I just feel that it’s best for me and everyone else if I edited the book myself.
Which is also why I’m eschewing sending the book to publishing companies and going the self-publishing route when “MY ASPIE LIFE” is finished; no way I’m going to have several dozen letters saying, “Thank you for submitting your manuscript to us. Unfortunately…” mailed to me as that would be a big waste of time, energy, and postage stamps.
Why suffer though all that humiliating rejection when I can simply publish it myself?
Contrary to what some may be thinking right about now, I am not so arrogant as to think that my manuscript is perfect and doesn’t need changing.
I completely understand that I’ll need to rewrite at least some chapters; get rid of paragraphs and change a lot of things that I’ve written such as names, as well as change the focus in certain chapters and passages that emphasize things that I no longer want to emphasize.
I know it’s a long process, but it’s more than worth it.
As such, I’m off to a pretty good start as I’ve edited the prologue and the first three chapters, and plan to continue this week.
I hope and pray that I’m successful, and that my book will generate at least a little interest, understanding, and compassion.
Because at the end of the day, that’s all I want.