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VARIOUS MUSINGS REGARDING BEING AN ASPIE IN MY FIFTIES
These days, regarding people who are on the autism spectrum, particularly of the high-functioning kind and namely those with Asperger’s Syndrome,
There are an embarrassment of riches as far as services, programs and support for Aspies who are children and young adults in the form of:
- Non-public schools geared toward that population – I know, I used to work at one
- Various services such as counseling and support groups, and…
- Programs that aim toward those aspies and others on the spectrum after the age of 22 (when Special Education and services & programs for those ages 3-22 end) gain independence in the form of jobs and “leaving the nest”, as in moving away from parents and getting an apartment
The other day a thought came to me…
What about those on the spectrum who are middle-aged and happen to be high functioning, like me?
Last year saw my fiftieth birthday, and as I am officially, by American standards, considered to be of middle age,
With me having high functioning Asperger’s, outside of meet-up groups I haven’t seen any support stuff geared toward aspies in my age group.
Besides those meet-up groups, the only thing I’ve seen among the developmentally disabled where the people are anywhere near my age is programs for lower-functioning groups; I’ve seen them from time to time when I take trips to the library, going online and reading books and magazines.
As for those meet-up groups – I know what quite a few of you are probably saying right now…
“Why don’t you check those groups out? Give them a chance?”
As much as I regret saying this, when I did sign up online for one of those groups in the Los Angeles, CA area, where I live,
Not only did their meet-up days and times not mesh with my schedule, I (to be brutally honest) simply didn’t feel comfortable enough to make any kind of commitments.
The reason for that discomfort?
One word: MAINSTREAMING.
This reminds me of myself when I’m out and about, only no backwards cap and the fact that I’m much bigger. Photo courtesy of wypr.org
After spending kindergarten in a special ed program – called a “Special Day Class” in those days – due to my sometimes animal-like behavior stemming from my aspieness at that young age – the powers that be determined that I had progressed enough to the point where I could be mainstreamed into a regular class for first grade.
Especially when they found that I could do the academic work fairly easily, as though my behavior needed modifying my reading (I began to read at age two-and-a half), writing, and math skills were considered to be very good, par for the course for many aspies.
To make a long story short, from age six all the way to high school graduation, I never set foot in a special education class, even finding myself in gifted classes a few of those years.
Which unfortunately left myself feeling uncomfortable with those who were in the special ed classes, and – as much as I hate to say it – even when I taught physical education at a non-public, special ed school roughly fifteen years ago as in one particular instance, a co-worker who was clearly on the syndrome, while nice enough, tried too hard to be my friend, unexpectedly calling me during the evening on one occasion.
Which, though it wasn’t his fault as he didn’t know this, was not a good thing as evenings are my time to decompress, my attitude being “I don’t bother anyone, so I don’t want anybody to bother me”.
I reckon folks are wondering what my point is to all of this – here it is:
As good as mainstreaming was for me; I’m sure I would have never achieved what I achieved – a college degree, a work ethic of (at least) some kind, social skills, having my own sports blog which is growing, called SoCal Sports Annals.com ( Here’s the link: http://www.socalsportsannals.wordpress.com ) – if it were not for that,
I’m convinced that I would be more comfortable among aspies today if I were among them more during my formative years, rather than be completely separated from them.
One thing that I would check out would be a singles group consisting of those on the spectrum who are high functioning, where the opposite sexes can meet, form friendships and have an opportunity to date.
In other words, I would be interested in going to a mixer featuring high functioning women and seeing if anything clicks.
I know that the reason why I haven’t found anything like that is the fact that male autistics out number their female counterparts by an average of five to one.
But meeting a woman who’s a high functioning aspie, minimum age 35 but preferably in her early forties and up, who shares the same interests as me, where we could provide companionship with each other,
Wouldn’t be something that I would be completely against.
Especially since I’m a fifty-something and don’t exactly have forever.
If there’s anyone out there who knows of any groups or programs like that in the Los Angeles area, please feel free to let me know!
There’s a chance I’ll check them out, but whether or not I choose to do so, I’ll feel glad knowing groups like that are out there.
Thank goodness I don’t feel as isolated as I used to, but that feeling is still there ever so often. Photo courtesy of bestpracticeautism.blogspot.com